especially when it comes from God.

i dont know if i should share this.
this is going to be a big ramble.
felt in the mood of it :D

HAHHA so this really concerned one of the greatest sacrifices i have made this year for this. erhem yeahh. so yeah. for the year we have been going through so far, lots of things have been bugging me. so like you know friendship and stuff. it was ultra complicated. and many a nights i would just feel so lost and confused and empty. so yeah who could i turn to but God. so each night i prayed hard hard hard. telling me what to do. so yeah even though each step i took might have brought out devastation, it still lead way to a greater reward at the end of the trail :D so yeahh. i just wanna say that i really thank God for all He has done in my life. placing all the wonderful people and all the "wonderful" obstacles for me just to grow in Him and love Him more. so you reading this might think this is all spiritual and stuff. but you have indeed seen what i have done. what i have sacrificed to let you experience the love i would have liked to receive :D so yes. i love you two so much i want you to experience what i would have loved as well :D so remember that i love you two loads so yeah!! and actually through this i managed to love someone else too :D and that makes me really happy. instead of upsetting one and making myself happy. might not make myself unhappy for the moment, move on and make three happy!! you might ask how can i ever be like this. that's because i have God in my life :D and i love Him very very muchh.

okay!! finished my rambles!! had to let that off!!

service was powerful today! really felt impacted by it.
the best was when we started worship again after pastor gary spoke.
and i just started singing
"give me a heart for my generation,
set me apart for His great commission."
because the song just started stirring in me immediately.
then sister gwen took over and started singing "i will go"
at first i was wondering that verse was in it because i was not clear.
then suddenly it came.
and my heart just FLUTTERED.
"I will give you that heart and set you apart."
whoa.
so i really felt God in service there :D
really happy.
AND I AM GLAD IM IN IGNYTE!!
PEOPLE COME TO MY CHURCH!
IT'S THE HAPPENING PLACE.

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