Monday, April 6
i don't know what is happening now.
it just feels like a big horrible mess i'm stuck in.
i want to get out of it but it just seems so impossible
(though nothing is with God)
but yes.
other than Him.
it's difficult to get it straight.
with you. and you. and you.
AHHHH.
how i wish i can just go on a holiday with dogs and something without homework.
and without all these stuff.
it get's on my nerves.
can't you just let go D:
get the fact that you are messing things up D:
now.
this.
wanted to cry when i walked off the stage.
it almost came crashing down.
the new steps.
the new revelation.
the new tension.
the new stress.
ARGHHHHHHHHH.
im so going to do a long tawg tonight.
i need some of God's true love in my heart again.
flood my heart.
<3 shanping
i want this all to get better.
but it's true.
suffering makes one tougher.
and i hope this is the case.
8:59 PM
SHANPING, 240394.