little boy oh little boy.
what are you doing?
worshipping God or perhaps being sorry.
im not sure what you are doing.

went to amkhub before to get birthday presents
and my sister made me late for church.
but anyway went there and sisterr and cousinnnn was there :D
so i was happy.
and i told them the terrorist thing
[AND JUST NOW THE NEWS SAID IT WAS A HOAX.]
so yeah.

FUEL was good.
had small group discussions.
and i realised i had alot to thank God for this week.
THANKYOU GOD!
and one thing i learned: God talks to us in many ways. Sometimes our mind tells us something right? and usually we are not sure if that is God Me or the devil. so today sarah and i asked sisjas and she confirmed that it really doesn't matter if it is God or it is Us. as long as it does not go against the word of God, it has no harm in us going according to it ((: because anything other than the devil is GOOD. because it is by God. and also sisjas used the word NEW BEGINNINGS. the new beginning being the ultimatte trasformation in our friends' life after knowing God. beause after knowing God, one will lead life anew in Him again. a life free of guilt and shame. So i guess for me it is the knowledge of my new knowledge and of course the fact that i have become renewed in Him. trust me, i am different from the shanping i was last year. i want and have started my new beginning in Him. thankyou Lordddddd.

and the awesome SERVICE!!
it was about the heart of worship. what and how do we worship. i totally agree with the dancing thing. everytime during worship time, my whole body moves. like some people stand there and only clap but i dont know why infront of the stage my legs start poing poing poing. and if i just stand there, i will feeeeel like a rock. like seriously a rock. doing nothing.
ACCORDING TO EXPERTISE ON BODY LANGUAGE: PEOPLE MOVE PARTS OF THEIR BODY WHEN THEY ARE HAPPY.
so i guess i am happy all the time these days. my body is hyperactive :D and also before the end of service we were asked to SHOUT. and zihui and i screamed. and we had sorethroat D: then from then i did a low shout. HAHHAHA. and at the end of service :DDDDD. I JUMPED LIKE I NEVER JUMPED BEFORE AT THE SEATS. because so much space. i really felt happy and YAYAYYYYYY. i wish we could all be like this during normal services!! it has so much more meaning. <3333 iloveignyte

[apparently my whole emo chunk has been erased. is it a sign from God that it should be forgotten? Is it a sign that i have been forgiven? well i guess God is good. and i thank Him for everything. and yes, i am human, i can be emo too]

for your name i will praise.
having faith forever and ever.

<3 shanping
not surprisingly, you're the only one i want to talk to now.
because i know you are the only person on earth who can help.

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